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My Baby Has Holes in Her Heart and I Know Why
My baby has holes in her heart. Four of them. And I know why. My baby has holes in her heart because I had holes in my heart while I carried her in my womb. Four of them. The pregnancy journey with this baby was exceptionally difficult. Instead of the joyful celebration of new life…
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To the Mama Going Through Pregnancy After Recurrent Miscarriage
To the mama going through pregnancy after recurrent miscarriage … I know. I know that the grief is not relieved (and may even be worsened) by having a successful pregnancy. I understand. I understand that awkward moment when someone asks if you are excited and you can’t give them the right answer. I get it.…
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My Chemical Pregnancy Stories
Even though it’s been a year since they happened, I still don’t really feel like sharing my chemical pregnancy stories. I don’t really feel like opening up my torn and insecure heart to a world that mostly will not understand. However, as I read this post about why it’s okay to grieve an early miscarriage,…
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God Cares About Your Miscarriage
My daughter had just completed her bead necklace/leash for her stuffed puppy. I watched as she picked up the ends and got up from the table to bring it over to me to tie. With a sweet smile, she began to carry it over to me, clearly proud of what she had made. My heart…
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My Complete Molar Pregnancy Story: Pregnant with a Tumor
Molar pregnancies are unviable pregnancies with rare genetic problems that occur at – or even before – conception. There are two types of molar pregnancy: Complete and partial. Both types involve a large placenta containing cells that multiply quickly and have the potential to spread to other parts of the body or regrow if they…
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How to Process Miscarriage Grief and Preserve Baby’s Memory – From Mamas Who’ve Been There
October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. But for those trying to process miscarriage grief, that awareness is present every single day. I have asked mamas of miscarried babies to share what has helped them grieve and remember their children. This is not an easy question to answer and there are no right or…
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Samantha’s Miscarriage Story
This story of miscarriage comes from Samantha Baca who is a mom-blogger and is married with two beautiful girls born 15 months apart. She has a full-time job but works from home part time to care for her daughters. She strongly values communication and has utilized her skills in this area to build her blog,…
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Trying to Conceive After Miscarriage
If you have lost a baby (or several) to miscarriage, I am so sorry. It is a difficult journey to walk, and sometimes you just want to fast-forward your life so you can be past this pain already. Especially when you are trying to conceive after miscarriage. Many women ache to fill their empty womb…
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Karen’s Infant Loss Stories
These stories of infant loss come from a friend I know from the church we used to attend when we lived in Michigan. Karen and her husband Tom are some of the most generous and giving people I’ve ever met. When I revealed the loss of our first baby publicly, Karen wrote me a message…
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Miscarriage Grief: Two Years Later
As I sit here crying, I can’t help but wonder – not for the first time – if I am being overly dramatic. It is a difficult and conflicting thing to grieve the loss of someone you never knew, yet loved with all your heart and carried within your very body. Sometimes I feel as…
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Maxine’s Adult Child Loss Story
This story comes from a previous co-worker and friend of mine. Although I did not know her son, I remember the exact moment when the email came through notifying me and the rest of the staff that he had passed away. I cried with a terrible ache in my heart for Maxine knowing she was…
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My Beginning of Motherhood: Miscarriage
My journey to motherhood began as many women’s do – with the loss of our first child through miscarriage. But that’s not where the story really begins. It really begins with the life of our first child. The Positive Pregnancy Test We had only been trying to conceive for a very short time when I…
